Music

Komm, süsser Tod (Barbershop Quartet)

I know, I know I've let you down
I've been a fool to myself
I thought that I could live for no one else
But now through all the hurt and pain
It's time for me to respect
The ones you love mean more than anything

So with sadness in my heart
I feel the best thing I could do
Is end it all and leave forever
What's done is done, it feels so bad
What once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again, my world is ending

I wish that I could turn back time
'Cause now the guilt is all mine
Can't live without the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
You can't forget love and pride
Because of that it's killing me inside

It all returns to nothing
It all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down
It all returns to nothing
I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down

In my heart of hearts, I know that I could never love again
I've lost everything, everything
Everything that matters to me matters in this world

I wish that I could turn back time
'Cause now the guilt is all mine
Can't live without the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
You can't forget love and pride
Because of that it's killing me inside

It all returns to nothing
It all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down
It all returns to nothing
I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down
It all returns to nothing
It all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down
It all returns to nothing
I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down

Karen Flow

And of course, the young lady on the drums is Karen!

(Streets)
(Up in New York City)

Long ago, and oh so far away
I fell in love with you
Before the second show
(Are you ready for a brand new beat?)

(Everywhere around the world, there'll be dancing)
(There'll be dancing)

What to say to make you come again (ooh, baby)
Come back to me again (ooh, baby)
And play your sad guitar
(Are you ready for a brand new beat?)

(Everywhere around the world, there'll be dancing)
(There'll be dancing)

Learning to Play (Flute Room)

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Wander

Was a long time ago when I heard the children howling in their room
Singing songs high and low of the people they’d be turning into soon
With a compliment set for you, with a smile to tell you that you’ll be okay
Did the anthem permeate you, did it make it hard to look the other way?
Well I’m turned around, I’m turned around

So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
There I lie

Let go of what you’ve heard, we’re beyond the reach of everything you’ve known
I will not be deterred, this uncharted age is screaming for a home
I’ve been reading all the stars above, I’ve been getting sleep beyond the border of the grave
With our faces underwater, could we even feel the rising tidal wave?
Well I hear those waves come crashing

So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
That old life is gone

I’ve been waiting for the sky to fall, I’ve been counting down the days ’til all the pieces burn
Were you searching for a meaning? Did it come to you in all they made you learn?
Well I don’t believe the message

So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
There I lie

I Don't Wanna Live This Way

Lately I just don’t feel I’m the same
There’s something I can’t see and it pulls the way I came
And I can’t get rest when it’s on my chest this is all that’s left of me
Away I’ve been wasting and I don’t wanna live this way

Maybe I’m inside a hurricane
Surrounded completely by the winds of hurried change
Now I’m left behind while the times go by cause they’ve gotten tired of me
Who’s moving too slowly, and I don’t wanna live this way

So I’ll follow where it goes just to feel okay
With the rain beneath my toes every single day
From across the chapel rows do they hear me pray
So he knows that I don’t wanna live this way again

Take me to the last time I was made
Before it went crazy with an illness I can’t say
There’s a darkness there that I can’t repair with the tools I bear on me
It’s watching me closely and I don’t wanna live this way

So I’ll follow where it goes just to feel okay
With the rain beneath my toes every single day
From across the chapel rows do they hear me pray
So he knows that I don’t wanna live this way again

I’m a criminal, I’m an infidel, and I don’t wanna live this way
I’m an animal, indescribable, and I don’t wanna live this way
Or they’ll throw me overboard just to feel okay
Heaven knows that I don’t wanna live this way again

Of Trees

I’m going to say it now.
I’m just gonna say it:
What I’m getting at is why you allow yourself to be exploited.
You’re willing to see a beautiful tree but it’s at a loss–
I think some time investments that you don’t consider to be losses are losses compared to certain time investments that you have not seen can be much bigger gains.
Because it is a loss, it’s a sacrifice. It’s a time-based sacrifice that you’re putting into seeing a tree.
How come you’re not willing to use X time to see a much more fucking nuanced and beautiful, and like, unimaginable tree that is also much scarier and much less of a tree, and much more dangerous, but also much more, just, endless, and not made for you by a group of people who make trees for you?
If this is what you want, you have to be happy with what you’re getting, because you get exactly what you put in.
That’s it.

(Hey dude, I’m actually in the middle of a pretty important discussion right now.)
(Come back!)

I see it as a game, dude, it’s a game.
Does it feel very satisfying to play?
Do you– do you ask yourself “why am I playing this” every time you open it up?
You think the world of video games is the only world out there for you? You really think there’s nothing out there for you?
Okay so, you, you– you know that there are other worlds out there for you, that you can thrive in more environments than just one.
You cannot just tomorrow stop playing video games, of course not. That will not happen, and that should not happen.
You know what the danger of this whole thing is? It’s that there’s no one reason for why you play Warframe. It fulfills a lot of things in a wonderful way.
You want certain things– I know how much you like them. I think there a lot of things that you have not seen the fruits of.
Yeah, I think you stop yourself from having certain kinds of relationships with girls that you could really enjoy more.
I think you have everything you need at your disposal in order to have, basically, much bigger and much juicier fruits with girls than you are currently letting yourself grow on the tree of fruits– on the tree of girls.
You are not watering your girl-fruit-tree… look dude, let me– let me be fucking simple:

Change your habits.
That’s it.

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I’m drowning in the silicon, I’m breathing in the rust
My lungs are tarred and feathered with the dust
I gaze up to the motherboard, its highways overrun
It fills me with a shame to speak its tongue

You’re on the edge of Labyrinth, I’m pulling you away
The Minotaur’s been digging you your grave
But you’re off in search of ecstasy inside the scrolling feeds
To hear that what you want is what you need

Yeah, so I tore that chip out from inside my eyes
Yeah, so I’d know that I could trust what I see
Yeah, and I swore that I would bring you back alive
Yeah, don’t give up on me, don’t give up on me

You’re lost beyond the Perlin sea and washed upon the shore
Where dreams are made and catalogued to tour
The lotus eaters beckon you, their faces hazed and stoned
The table is prepared, your seat is shown

I strip the wire to the core, connect it to the sun
To take you off the grid and on the run
But your head is burning to the touch, a heat sink for the code
Programming you into someone I don’t know

Yeah, so I tore that chip out from inside my eyes
Yeah, so I’d know that I could trust what I see
Yeah, and I swore that I would bring you back alive
Yeah, don’t give up on me, don’t give up on me

Dangerous

I think there’s something wrong
Think they’ve found out about me
Feels like they’ve finally sent the whole world out to change me
I hear their siren song
That they’ve put out to catch me
But I’ve been listening far too long to let it get me

I hear them coming down hard
Searching every cornerstone, will they ever leave alone? Never
I feel them raising their guard
Trying not to hear me, don’t let them hear me

Because I’m dangerous
The border’s breaking down, I’m ready to burst
The word was made for us
I’m not going down without a fight
You know I’m dangerous
If they don’t bring me down, they’re ready to burst
You know their hate for us
So come on, come with me, come on, come with me

They’ve got me on the run
They’ve got me hide-and-seeking
They’re doing everything to keep me from ever speaking
I’m Wanted Number One
I’m whispered conversation
I’m hanging on the edge of everything you’ve ever held

I hear them playing their noise
Drowning every paradigm, don’t you read between the lines ever
I keep from raising my voice
So they don’t hear me, don’t let them hear me

Because I’m dangerous
The border’s breaking down, I’m ready to burst
The word was made for us
Life out from underneath their heels
You know I’m dangerous
If they don’t bring me down, they’re ready to burst
You know their fate for us
So come on, come with me, come on, come with me

Don’t let them tell you your world
Listen with your lying ears, made for facing down your fears, yeah
Scream if you wanna be heard
So you can save me, won’t you come save me

Because I’m dangerous
The border’s breaking down, I’m ready to burst
The word was made for us
I’m not going down without a fight
You know I’m dangerous
If they don’t bring me down, they’re ready to burst
You know their hate for us
So come on, come with me, come on, come with me

Break Away

Seventeenth of June
I’m all alone with you
You’re going much too soon
There’s nothing I could do
I know I’m not a lover
I know I’m not a friend
I know I’m much too clever
To let it be the end

Break away

I’m breaking all the rules (Oh you never cared for ‘em anyway)
I’ve bet it all on you (That you did, that you did)
I’m stranded in this room (Did you think this far ahead)
It’s colder without you (But anyone would do)
I know it’s long been over (Oh don’t you start with me)
I know you’re out again (I’m moving on, I’m moving on)
I know it’s left you broken (Whose fault do you think that is)
You never could pretend (You don’t know anything)

Break away

I’ve never scratched your picture (Oh it’s easier if you did)
I’ve never bent the truth (But sometimes I wish you would)
I’ve never left your corner (I don’t want your kind of sympathy)
No matter what I lose (Ah)

Break away

Interlude (I'm Not Down)

But I'm not down
I'm okay
Yeah I'm not down
I'm not running away

Rain

Rain
Come pull me up again
Come pull me up again, oh
Rain
And wash away the blood

Let it come, let it come
In a flood, oh a flood

The last time we talked was a thousand years
We built us a bridge made of gold
When night came, the darkness played tricks on our eyes
The fire couldn’t scare off the cold
The last time we saw we turned down the lights
We spoke through our savers of souls
When sun broke the sky, our bridge was long gone
There’s something in the water, I know

Rain
Come pull me up again
Come pull me up again, oh
Rain
And wash away the blood
Oh, come down on me
Rain
Come pull me up again
Come pull me up again, oh
Rain

Let It Be (Wake Up)

Wake up, it’s time to open up your windows
Let the light shine through from the twilight view
Save up every penny that you made from
Selling shares of you when they asked you to
They sang the sweetest of love songs
They held your feet off the ground
They set the greatest of fires
Then left you deaf to the sound
Wake up, the sun is setting and you’ve missed out
On the light it’s left behind

But all you say is
“Let it be, let it be, let it be
Oh why can’t you just
Let it be, let it be, let it be
Don’t you see I don’t
Wanna leave, wanna leave, wanna leave
Won’t you let me sleep”

Wake up, you’ve been drinking of a poison
With the taste of god in the noble rot
Make up with your brothers and your sisters
From the wars you’ve fought, see the scars they’ve wrought
I offer you pain and struggle
I offer blood, sweat, and tears
I know it’s hardest to follow
I know I don’t feel your fear
Wake up, the bed you lay in is slowly breaking
From the weight it’s holding up

I hear you saying
“Let it be, let it be, let it be
Oh why can’t you just
Let it be, let it be, let it be
Don’t you see I don’t
Wanna leave, wanna leave, wanna leave
Won’t you let me sleep”

Won’t you please let it be, I’m afraid of the dark
Those voices deep inside laugh at me from far behind
You won’t be there for me, I’m not seeing what you see
There’s no other way to be, so let it be, so let it be
Don’t make me wake up, there’s a comfort in this reverie
I don’t wanna lose, I refuse, I refuse
I won’t wake up, close the curtains on my window
There’s no light for us to find

Oh please don’t tell me
“Let it be, let it be, let it be”
You know I can’t just
Let it be, let it be, let it be
Come with me ‘cause I
Wanna leave, wanna leave, wanna leave
Don’t go back to sleep

(Let it be, let it be, let it be
Let me sleep)

Life's a Blessing

Rest your head and close your eyes
Dream a dream of a world gone by
Once upon a time
Settle in for another day
There’s so much you want to say
If you could find a way

Lift your eyes for all to see
Raise your ears to the melody
Of all you still could be
You don’t have to walk alone
Venturing in the great unknown
Waiting for someone to bring you home

Life’s a blessing you just have to choose
Just know that I’ll be standing right with you

Life’s a blessing you just have to choose
Just know that I’ll be standing right with you
Your days grow brighter when time starts to move
Just know we’ll all be waiting here for you
Life’s a blessing you just have to choose
Just know that I’ll be standing right with you
Your days grow brighter when time starts to move
Just know we’ll all be waiting here for you

The Open Door

I felt a chill come to guide me
I heard the open door
He took my hand down to lead me
Across the golden floor
He said, “My child, represent me
The open road is yours
Into a world turned against me
Yourself you’ll lay down for”

I kept the Word square beside me
I set my demons first
Their songs were sweeter than honey
Their breath was winterburst
I tried to beat back the moonlight
I only staved the dawn
I watched the fire touch the inside
And so the night was long

So long so it takes you in
So long 'til I'm home again

I walked a mile down the south street
The end was drawing near
I passed from marble to concrete
The ending disappeared
I asked of roads I have ridden
They said to linger on
I asked if I’ve come unbidden
He said to carry on

Carry on though your will may bend
Carry on ’til the bitter end

So I’ve come so far but where we are
Was never any better than where we’ve been
So I’m spinnin’ ‘round in the clouds
And everything just pulls me back within

Ooh ah, coming down again
Ooh ah, let me down again
Ooh ah, I am lost again
So let me start again

I heard the open door
He took my hand down to lead me
To where I was before

Paul

Rest your head and still yourself tonight
Make your bed and walk into the light

Your wind has gone, carried from
The valley to the sea

Break your bread and drink, as is your right
In your stead we'll take up for your fight

Vermont Kiss

I've given up ambition, I'm never conquering the world again
In my kitchen, I'm thinking of my dinner for tonight
No more hiding, I'm never living two lives again
Gathering linens, I'm cleaning up myself from tonight

From in the clouded forest, from underneath the frozen winter air
Gently brewing, a cup of tea to bring to my lips near
No more running, I'm never living through that day again
Love letter, can't find it in myself to make you hear

Love has brought a fever, 37.5 degrees
Normal weather, 36.2 degrees

I've given up subversion, I'm never tearing down the walls again
Shake this feeling, this premonition's got me wondering why
No more fighting, I'm never swimming upstream again
Gone forever, to bittersweetness I must say goodbye

Love has brought a fever, 37.5 degrees
Normal weather, 36.2 degrees
Love has brought a fever, 37.5 degrees
Burn forever, 38.2 degrees

Who's this siren kiss I've been dedicating for?
Who's this careless kiss I'm thereafter giving to?
He's this timid kiss I've been softly saving for
What's a honey kiss like upon my virgin lips?

I've given up ambition, I'm never conquering the world again
No more fighting, I'm never conquering the world again

What's a honey kiss for our Father up above

Sabbath

You're under my skin

Make me your world
Of flesh and blood
Make me your world
You keep me whole

Let It Be

All she's got is the way he looked
Many miles on the other side
He had overheard her choice
And he delved off her cliffside
Sacrifice, he just wants to help
Holds the world like a baby
Takes his mask off and lulls his head
Then she sees him in his screen

They both see the traps
No fool, oh
They won't go back
No fool, oh
They've got a mind track
No fool, oh
It's all a mystery
Let it come and let it be

All he's got is the way she looked
As she broke from her tether line
She had sheltered in his voice
And she caved to the inside
Discontentment, she paints her smile
Roams the world like an oak tree
Lets her hair down and lulls her head
Then he sees her in her screen

They both see the traps
No fool, oh
They won't go back
No fool, oh
They've got a mind track
No fool, oh
It's all a mystery
Let it come and let it be

They both see the traps
No fool, oh
They won't go back
No fool, oh
They've got a mind track
No fool, oh
It's all a mystery
Let it come and let it be

They both see the traps
No fool, oh
They won't go back
No fool, oh
They've got a mind track
No fool, oh
It's all a mystery
Let it come and let it be

For Tomorrow

From afar where the sky and the sea
Melt together, tomorrow's fall from earth
Lightning charm, smiling shower, sound of newborn breed
Birds ignore, sailing shore, in the morning come

On this wide world, everything is calling
My old dear, sea of sheaves on earth
All the times we think of long, long dreams, pleasant dreams
Lightning charm, smiling shower, I wished that day

From afar where the sky and the sea
Melt together, tomorrow's fall from earth
Lightning charm, smiling shower, sound of newborn breed
Birds ignore, sailing shore, in the morning come

Learning to Play (Flute Room)

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Komm, süsser Tod (Barbershop Quartet)

May 17, 2026

Komm, süsser Tod (Barbershop Quartet)

Karen Flow

April 12, 2026

Karen Flow

Yume Nikki: Exegesis

June 26, 2024

REM (Title Screen)
Undergrowth (Forest World)
Alabaster Dreams (Snow World)
Noire Reveries (Dark World)
Downtime (Save Screen)
Another Year (Pink Sea)
Another Night (Poniko's Room)
Refuge (Barracks Settlement)
Great Pyramid of Games (Checkered Tile Path)
Pursuit (Toriningen Beat)
Dance, Monkey, Dance (Aztec Rave Monkey)
Learning to Play (Flute Room)
The Wind in Your Hair (Witch Flight)
Buried Away (Mars Underground)
Awake (Ending)

So Far

August 12, 2022

Vermont Kiss
Rocket Jump Waltz (Lo-Fi)
Coasting
Forest of Frogs (Flare Redux)
In Her Element
Sabbath
Taswell
Let It Be
Sweden
For Tomorrow
In Her Element (Piano)

Yume Nikki: Between the Lines

May 12, 2021

REM (Title Screen)
Undergrowth (Forest World)
Alabaster Dreams (Snow World)
Noire Reveries (Dark World)
Downtime (Save Screen)
Another Year (Pink Sea)
Another Night (Poniko's Room)
Refuge (Barracks Settlement)
Great Pyramid of Games (Checkered Tile Path)
Pursuit (Toriningen Beat)
Dance, Monkey, Dance (Aztec Rave Monkey)
Learning to Play (Flute Room)
The Wind in Your Hair (Witch Flight)
Buried Away (Mars Underground)
Awake (Ending)